I have a vision of myself. I have no car. Only transportation. Endless lines back and forth, bringing me to places along with every other person alive. They never stop. I never stop. I see myself as neither a man or a woman. I see a woman. I do not see a man. I see quiet nights. I see cutlery clinking in restaurants. I see agony and happiness. When I step I feel bark. I feel green. Silence pervades but also sound. Ghost travels up the hill and sees out beyond and never looks back, only looks down. You can hear water. You can feel water. You can water. You remember I. In my vision of myself I am food. I am nurturing and nurtured. I stop connection. I stop connection to . Things stop. Things go. I go. It's time. In the vision of myself I am no longer desperately sucking life from the atmosphere and praying with all my might that it fills. In my vision, I am. There are stars, and it is cold. The air feels different. I can reach out and grasp within it and find what I need. I don't rush home as fast as I can. I am already there.